Bitter – A Nasty Taste

OK, I’m there.  To that ugly place I've been desperately trying to avoid.  I’m bitter.  Through all the ups and downs over the past nine months this is the first time I've been bitter, and it tastes awful.  I take a pregnancy test tomorrow after our second cycle of IUI and I’m not very optimistic.  I definitely don’t  feel pregnant.

I feel betrayed.  My body is supposed to be able to do this.  It’s supposed to want to do this.  I’m starting to understand more of what it means to be an infertility patient.  And it sucks.